I really wonder what kind of person I am going to be after two years of living here, learning to live with someone else, working in a culture and people not my own.
I wonder if in a year, I’ll be more “tough” and less sensitive because I’m tired of people complaining so much? I wonder if I’ll be more sensitive because after so much, I’ll just give in because it hurts so much. I wonder if our project will be completed.
Working with someone unlike you is pretty hard. Robin and I have talked openly about it, and we've joked how, "if this is any preparation for marriage, then we do not want to get married!" I wonder if I will ever want to work with anyone else ever again and commit myself to singleness? I wonder if I will better understand how to get along with people and be the best partner ever. Haha...I wonder if I’ll become more like Robin, and she more like me. I wonder if my fear of rejection and disapproval will grow or shrink. I know I will be changed after all this. Changed from the ministry, changed from the people, changed also from my partner. Which changes will be good, which will not be…it’s a little scary to think about. I look forward to finding out!
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