So, we have no phone, no internet, and til yesterday we didn’t have water. Or well, we had water, but it had not completely filled up the tanks for the past few days. I have felt like I have no communication with the outside world…it’s strange because I don’t remember feeling this disconnected when we were in the village. I’m not happy or sad about it, it’s just a feeling I have. I have gotten over the initial shock of no internet. For the first few days, I check about 3 times a day to see if it would work. Now especially since we don’t have a phone line, there is no chance of it happening, so no point in checking!
Besides, I have a ton of work to do!!! Lord- I’m so glad you do know my heart. You know my desire for companionship- and a companion that longs to share struggles of serving you. A companion who can’t wait to get hot and sweaty, or freeze, for you!!! Someone who hardly complains, not because they are hesitant to share their true feelings, but because they truly don’t mind the negative circumstances. Or rather, they have such a positive attitude; they don’t see the circumstances as negative. A companion who is not blind to the world around him…someone who sees people as they are and can connect with them where they are…Someone who would be excited for me making a new friend or learning something new in a language. Someone who would encourage me when I don’t know what to do. Someone who would know when to give me advice and when to listen. Someone who is committed to you even more than he would be committed to me…
Right, I know such a person doesn’t exist. Haha, but that's good. I won’t have to waste my time looking :) And Father, perhaps I will go on several other trips like this one, and I’ll have a different companion for the journey- not a husband, but another partner. Goodness, I have no idea what you have planned- how cool to think that you know what’s going to happen this evening, tomorrow, next week, a year from now and the rest of my life!! Great!!! And, what’s even better, is I know I can trust you for that!!! I can totally trust you!
Thank you Jesus for restoring my relationship with God, so that I can call him Father and that I can trust him…
I also want to pray that I would become the woman you want me to become. I’ve asked you for a companion with specific characteristics, but have not in any way prayed about how I might be a companion to him!!!!
May you continue to work on me and show me my faults (uh oh, watch out!!!). Please show me where I can be a better companion, where I can improve in communication and can extend grace where it is needed, but also stand firm when I should. Please show me how I can encourage others, especially my partner. Help me to be able to read her well and know what her needs and wants might be and help provide for them as I am able, but also as you want me to- perhaps in some cases, you don’t want me to play that role- help me to know that too….
May you be preparing me now for the next companion I might have, whoever that might be.
Thank you for your provision for me. Thank you for guiding me thus far in working with my partner. Thank you for showing me your grace, when I’ve needed it (everyday!!). Thank you for helping me more recently to be able to stand firm when I’ve needed to and not give in to arguments.
I ask that you would continue to bless Robin’s and my relationship, partnership and friendship. I pray that you would continue to show both of us how we can work even better together, and how we can work in a way that brings the most glory to you!!! Thank you for giving us only what we can handle each step of the way…You are truly a good God.
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